Shock and Awe

I am now into my 19th week of pregnancy and I actually feel pretty good. I have discovered that I am no longer a chicken eater. I started to notice that whenever I would have it I would get sick, so I am sticking to red meat (mainly bison) and turkey. With so many rules about what fish you can and can't eat, I have just given up on the idea of fish at all. I noticed that I now have a bit of a sweet tooth, which of course is never good for anyone......pregnant or not. The thought of a Jolly Rancher, Skittles or Starbursts makes me so incredibly happy!! I really hope that goes away after Buttercup gets here because that would not be cute after pregnancy.

My sleeping positions have changed so much. I can no longer sleep on my left side mainly because the baby gets mad if I do. My right side is a lot more comfortable. My husband sent me a link for this pregnancy pillow called a Snoogle and OMG that is the best thing that has happened to me!! I love it!! It's basically a whole body pillow and I can't imagine not having it. My friend Alissa suggested I name it and her name is Betty! She is named after my favorite Golden Girl because when it's time for bed, I always am watching them on T.V.! LOL!! I have also be reduced to using a step stool to get in bed at night. Having a high bed was a cool idea when Buttercup was not chillin in my belly.

There really isn't much of a hair update except that under this weave, it's growing!! I still use natural products, especially shampoos and conditioners. I am really curious to see how long it is when I stop using protective styles in October (my 1 year anniversary since my Big Chop).

As I stated in my previous post, we were going to find out the sex of Buttercup. Well we did and it was complete SHOCK AND AWE for me. We are having a little girl!!!!!!!!!! Yep, a little Nikki running around.......the world is not ready and neither am I. I was so surprised, a girl, really? I swore up and down I was having a boy! The Chinese Calendar even predicted a boy ( yes, I believed the calendar). My hubby was not surprised AT ALL!! He has been saying it since day one that we were having a girl. After my initial shock, I started to cry because I think deep down I may have really wanted a girl. The thing with them is that they are so precious and I truly believe that a mother has to face and come to terms with her own issues to be sure not to pass them down to her daughter. Girls are fragile creatures and I am happy that I have come to a place in my life where I can now see and speak my Truth and pass it on to my daughter.